How sad is this?

All of these films share one commonality, that being a kind of emotional center that humanizes a cast of monsters.

Exactly the movie you think it is, but not the movie you want it to be.

One of the film's great tricks is that, for a time, you think it will go down a rabbit hole of unrealistic glorification.

If you've stumbled upon this little blurb of mine, you most likely know who Ricardo Lopez was, and you've also probably seen Ricardo decked out in his Sith-like make-up committing suicide. The Video Diary of Ricardo Lopez gives you a detailed look into the downward spiral of his depression and mental state.The 'movie' is a 104 minute 'highlight' reel of sorts that was taken from over 20 hours of home video footage Ricardo shot while he was planning his attempt to murder singer, Bjork. Which what began as a sort of mastermind plan to murder her, he began realizing he would never get away with it, and slowly his master-plan began unraveling, and so does he, and that death would ultimately be the best result for his plans.This film is a weird viewing experience. I knew of the demise of Ricardo. I've seen it. But consistently throughout the movie my mind would still hope that I'd see Ricardo see his folly, and witness him improve. But unfortunately, that's not the case, and any wishful thinking is all but useless energy.With only witnessing the suicide, you're left with a very simple impression; that he's just a psycho. Again, that is just not the case here. This is a classic case of mental illness, and watching his descent is must-see viewing if you're interested in the human condition. It's touching, intriguing, graphic, intimate and more than anything else, sad.

When I first saw this documentary, I felt like something was missing and I wanted to know more about what actually happened. And I think it's my sensationalist side that really wanted that because I realized that this documentary is not really about what happened, it's about how it happened. A lot of us saw the last part of Ricardo Lopez's project where he cuts his hair and paints his face with red painting before killing himself. Sami Saif really did a good job by not showing what was not important to understand how it happened. Lopez's psychological portrait is very well explained and everything was useful. We could feel the most bizarre feeling of confidence and solicitude at the same time in Ricardo's voice.It was very disturbing and very depressing. Because I really thought that no one in is family saw that he needed help. But he actually had plenty of psychological support. We can see that something is lacking in the medical system because this very smart but sick man needed more than just medication.Ricardo Lopez proved that we are more dangerous to ourselves than to others.